Being Urban



"They say what I've done; they don't know what I have been through."

I wake up that morning thinking about the dream I had last night, a broken dream. I look outside the window and I see the bright sunlight tearing down through the curtains; eyes still paining, wanting to sleep more. I look around, dazed and confused.

Was I supposed to wake up?

Books make up a corner just besides the computer. CDs strewn all over the floor along with the dress I wore last night. I sit on the edge of the bed, hands supporting the body on the bed-frame.

"No, I mustn't sleep now. That dream won't come back for sure."

I hear them on the other end of the hallway, talking about what they expected of me and what I had become - a failure.

Just an  ordinary day it is.

I search for my phone, and headphones as well. Few messages and a couple of missed calls greet me. I look at the messages first. The same ol' "life quotes" and "Rajini jokes".


Pfft. Bored.

I put on the headphones. PLAY. Rage Against the Machines begin pounding in my head. Just a feeble attempt at keeping the battery of thoughts away from crowding my mind. I see them arguing about something, pity I can't hear them. They see me and they stop. Someone says something to me. 

I head for the kitchen, make up a dark coffee. He comes and stands in front of me, she stand behind him. I pull down an ear bud to hear him speak. Speak?

Failure.

I take the baseline, put my headphones back on and head back to my room barely holding tears. I am angry, I am upset and Rage Against the Machine hits the Bridge.

I fall back on the bed, eyes fixed on the window, I can barely see the traffic now. I wipe my tears off to witness the summer sky.

Track changes. A romantic number.

Memories take me back to a time when dreams were a reality. Whenever I fell, I had someone to grab me by my arms.

But dreams do break apart.

It's time to put the mask on. It's time to play the "game" again;
I know one thing will eat me from within
But I am still alive, I am still breathing.
I am down, but not out!
No! You can't put words in my mouth;
I am still alive, I am still fighting
I am an urban guy baby, I am the smiling devil.

Dedicated to a friend....

(The work will/may showcase soon in an exhibition. So, I need your feedback! )

Comments

  1. Excellent as always. Subtle elements everywhere in the blog. I am so proud of you. This blog has a lot to convey for urban people. A lot.

    Keep writing. Keep making us happy.:)

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  2. Neat work.

    By the way, the video you posted here is one of my favorites on Vimeo.

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  3. @Sneha... Thanks! :)

    @Shakti bhai ... I am full time Vimeo follower. This video floored me. I had to post it here. :)

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  4. Nice ... the vimeo clip adds to the mood too.

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  5. I think this is really good Auri! Just keep righting...my favorite line...."Track changes. A romantic number." I see so much symbolism in this piece. Really nice man. Being urban is cool. I am urban too!

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  6. Hey Aurgho :) this post of yours depicts -strength despite failures- strength to move on, strength pick urself up after a fall :)
    Urban to me means – having immense strength, letting go of things, importantly accepting oneself be it in success or failure ; hence pass from my side- great work on this but sadly I can’t view the video from office sigh-cruel world –but will get back home and check it, sayonara till then.

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  7. Hi Auri!
    All your postage are amazing, also posted their videos are wonderful, different from what I'm used to seeing here in BRAZIL, specially I loved this video, one of the most liked, but all are excellent. The look of your blog is also very beautiful, just missed the birds. I also enjoyed your photo.
    Have a good day!!!
    Greetings from BRAZIL.
    Bye, bye
    Bia :)

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  8. A Very creative and entertaining project! Peace & Luv 2U!

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